okies, have been blogging much bout wad's going on in my life and such, this time, i shall blog on myself

looking thru my old testis, and notice one common term in most of them.
its the word BLUR...
this blurness has been accompanying me since young i guess.
maybe an example like today, i was buying mac for my friends. i left the place with only the drinks and the burgers, i totally forgot bout the fries. in the end, i had to go back to clementi to get the fries. a wasted trip. it could have been saved if i wasnt so blur.

doing the painting work in our rock gym these days.
it was tiring.. just hope everything turns out well!
thanks to the peeps who were thr to help! Its appreciated!

communication with people is tough.
saw this line on the bus that says "u cant shake someone's hands with a clench fist"
sometimes, i feel that i'm toking too much, maybe being a quieter carene would help.. sometimes, its just good to keep my mouth shut la!
time to shut up carene!jsut do wadeva u feel like doing as long as u know wad u want!

Fly. because i want to.
11:43 AM

back from genting trip.

was quite a relaxing and fun trip.
ate,slpt,shopped. marvellous.
it also includes chatting with my mum,aunt and sis. get to know wad they are really thinking and also telling them bout my tots and stuffs.
chatted bout guys, and how to know whether the guy is a great one. hahaha. really interesting mindset they have.

been climbing a lot and neglected my family. this trip also serves as a bonding session for us.

my sis and i shared a deluxe room, with 2 queen sized bed for each of us. damn cool and comfortable. we slpt till bout 3 before waking up for our brunch..haha

went over to take a look at the rock wall again. memories of the previous trip arose. trip where the few of us went, climbed thr, played thr. it was a great trip!

fun trip indeed.

Fly. because i want to.
6:56 AM

my beloved jinli's finally BACKKKKK
hehe.. happy man! she's slimmed down! alot!
haha, jinli, bet u're happy when u see this entry ar! now can wear shorts shorts alrdy eh! hehehe

Fly. because i want to.
8:55 AM

Fly. because i want to.
8:55 AM

urge of tears flowing..

though i would play ard, joke ard, it doesnt mean that i am not affected by wad happened.

many emotional attacks happened lately.

boulderactive is probably the striker to all the pain and fiery..
french sch and rock on difficulty comps have left a scar in me. making me hesistant to join difficulty comps. in both comps, i slipped for no reason..
i've overestimated myself..
had a disappointing performace during intermediate finals. though pp ard consoled and said"its ok, u've just climbed for less than a yr and u're alrdy in finals!" but to me, i feel i could do better than that. and thats why i feel very down.
but i will not be beaten..

parents of mine arent supportive of my climbing all along but i defied them.
i continued to climb.. leaving home early, and reaching home late, sometimes even later than my curfew. tt's when i got all my scolding..
but now, my mum dun seem to care. i think it hurts more than anything.
wad she said is true. i've treated my house too much like a hotel. where i return for my rest.
i know i'm wrong and am trying to change..

my results suck like shit.
gonna study harder for next sem
siaec scholarship has yet to reply. making me very worried

sorry for leaving mm so suddenly, leaving things to my partner just like tt. am selfish.

have nv weeped so much in my life..not only my eyes teared, my heart too..
isnt as strong as i tot i could be..
am lonely and confused. lost my sense of direction..
sometimes, i just hope thr's someone special thr just for me. but in reality, its not gonna happen.. and i can only stay strong..

Fly. because i want to.
7:03 AM