went to climb today. felt great man!
my great doesnt refer to my climb. but its the feeling of climbing, touching the tiles again, doing drop knee, locking, sit in blah blah blah. marvellous.
my climb nw is really rocky to the extend that i might be even rusty. but!
i think its the mentality that is gona pull me out from this shit.
all i have to do now is train harder.
yes, i do feel demoralised, beaten. but i try to psycho myself. psyche myself up!
go! carene! u can do it!
even wan say im livelier today. haha
gona get new climbing shoes. im buying fiveten anazasi slipper again. yes, boring, but it suits me. i love this shoe and since its serving its duty well, why shld i change it? my current shoe is in a rather bad state. the cover of the left side is torn and the right one has a hole underneath. bad bad bad. my want of buying a rockshoe has transformed into a need. hahaha
my great doesnt refer to my climb. but its the feeling of climbing, touching the tiles again, doing drop knee, locking, sit in blah blah blah. marvellous.
my climb nw is really rocky to the extend that i might be even rusty. but!
i think its the mentality that is gona pull me out from this shit.
all i have to do now is train harder.
yes, i do feel demoralised, beaten. but i try to psycho myself. psyche myself up!
go! carene! u can do it!
even wan say im livelier today. haha
gona get new climbing shoes. im buying fiveten anazasi slipper again. yes, boring, but it suits me. i love this shoe and since its serving its duty well, why shld i change it? my current shoe is in a rather bad state. the cover of the left side is torn and the right one has a hole underneath. bad bad bad. my want of buying a rockshoe has transformed into a need. hahaha
Fly. because i want to.
7:56 AM
Monday, February 19, 20077:56 AM
happy new yr everyone!
thinking of changing blog. i want sth customised. but i dno hw to do it, so brushed off that idea.
im totally enjoying myself here. relaxing, slping till late in the noon, reading books in comfort, watching vcd.
im starting to dread going to work everyday. thr's practically nothing for us to do thr, other than slack, slp, eat. gona get really fat if i do this everyday man!
after wrk, exhaustion drains me cos i have to wake up really early everyday for wrk. journey thr (to the wrkshp) takes bout 1.5 hrs, and my wrkg time starts frm 8am.
after driving, i have to either rush dwn for wrk at clarity cafe or for my driving lessons. i dun have much time for me to climb. =( getting weaker and fatter...
however, ive just planned my schedule. im gona stick to it! may carene be discipline to carry out every single task im assigned.
speaking of climbing. i haven been climbing for more than a mth. this is probably the longest break ive ever taken. being busy is one reason. another is cos, ive injured my shoulder. the aching pain dun seem to subside. pray hard that its gna heal FAST.
thr's some stuffs that happened that made me quite uncomfortable. maybe im being self centre or petty, but im quite irritated by some of these incident.
had a LONG talk with dessie and jack. both of them used their own stories to make me understand my situation better and to help me in my decision making. making me think of things in a different point of view. im still pondering on wad i shld do. maybe i shld just go along with things and see how they go. this might be a selfish and irresponsible idea, but its the only decision that i can make myself do.
on a lighter note, i think dessie has become better looking than before. haha, thg he's still ask violent to me. =(
thinking of changing blog. i want sth customised. but i dno hw to do it, so brushed off that idea.
im totally enjoying myself here. relaxing, slping till late in the noon, reading books in comfort, watching vcd.
im starting to dread going to work everyday. thr's practically nothing for us to do thr, other than slack, slp, eat. gona get really fat if i do this everyday man!
after wrk, exhaustion drains me cos i have to wake up really early everyday for wrk. journey thr (to the wrkshp) takes bout 1.5 hrs, and my wrkg time starts frm 8am.
after driving, i have to either rush dwn for wrk at clarity cafe or for my driving lessons. i dun have much time for me to climb. =( getting weaker and fatter...
however, ive just planned my schedule. im gona stick to it! may carene be discipline to carry out every single task im assigned.
speaking of climbing. i haven been climbing for more than a mth. this is probably the longest break ive ever taken. being busy is one reason. another is cos, ive injured my shoulder. the aching pain dun seem to subside. pray hard that its gna heal FAST.
thr's some stuffs that happened that made me quite uncomfortable. maybe im being self centre or petty, but im quite irritated by some of these incident.
had a LONG talk with dessie and jack. both of them used their own stories to make me understand my situation better and to help me in my decision making. making me think of things in a different point of view. im still pondering on wad i shld do. maybe i shld just go along with things and see how they go. this might be a selfish and irresponsible idea, but its the only decision that i can make myself do.
on a lighter note, i think dessie has become better looking than before. haha, thg he's still ask violent to me. =(
Fly. because i want to.
5:57 AM
Monday, February 12, 20075:57 AM
exams are finally over!
time to start meeting out with friends, take a brk to do things i love and enjoy.
supposed to be working this afternoon. but by the time i rchd bugis, i received a msg "sorry, u dun need to come down today". at first i was quite mad! i felt that my time is wasted.
din want to go back home, so decided to chill out at starbucks. read magazine, drank my usual mocha frappe.
it was actually a blessing in diguise. its been a long time since i had such luxury. enjoyed myself=)
met my mum in town to go shopping for cny clothes. we walked from taka to wisma, wisma to far east, far east to hereen whr i finally found sth i like. if not for the walking-trg at wrk, i would have collapse. felt bad having my mum and aunt walking round and round with me like that.
i bought this white dress which i think looks quite sweet ( of cos, if not why would i have bought it) haha. i like things to be simple.
as i walked ard far east, i saw lots of trendy dresses. those vintage, retro ones with lots of prints of flowers, leaves and etc. but i just dun fancy them.
my fav colour is white and black. so i was actually looking for a white dress. and this one caught my eye.
back from shopping nw. resting at home before going for my driving lessons later. im quite tired after walking so much. =( legs are breaking. hahaha.
time to start meeting out with friends, take a brk to do things i love and enjoy.
supposed to be working this afternoon. but by the time i rchd bugis, i received a msg "sorry, u dun need to come down today". at first i was quite mad! i felt that my time is wasted.
din want to go back home, so decided to chill out at starbucks. read magazine, drank my usual mocha frappe.
it was actually a blessing in diguise. its been a long time since i had such luxury. enjoyed myself=)
met my mum in town to go shopping for cny clothes. we walked from taka to wisma, wisma to far east, far east to hereen whr i finally found sth i like. if not for the walking-trg at wrk, i would have collapse. felt bad having my mum and aunt walking round and round with me like that.
i bought this white dress which i think looks quite sweet ( of cos, if not why would i have bought it) haha. i like things to be simple.
as i walked ard far east, i saw lots of trendy dresses. those vintage, retro ones with lots of prints of flowers, leaves and etc. but i just dun fancy them.
my fav colour is white and black. so i was actually looking for a white dress. and this one caught my eye.
back from shopping nw. resting at home before going for my driving lessons later. im quite tired after walking so much. =( legs are breaking. hahaha.
Fly. because i want to.
2:48 AM
Friday, February 02, 20072:48 AM
at work today, we had a function for this couple who were having their ROM dinner with their friends thr. its really sweet to see how this 2 couples are, holding each other promises and being there for each other in the future regardless of riches, poverty, sickness or wad have u.
awww..
was watching some dramas this afternoon, one little story captures my heart deeply.
"there are 3 brothers. named 'lose'. 'regret' and 'cherish'. however, there's 1 special thing bout them. u will never be able to meet the 3 of them at the same time. instead u will only get to knw them one after another. first, "Lost" then "regret" lastly "cherish". " this is life. bet, many people have been through this and everyone will go through this. everyone will knw these 3 brothers.
okok, better go bathe nw and then SLP!
awww..
was watching some dramas this afternoon, one little story captures my heart deeply.
"there are 3 brothers. named 'lose'. 'regret' and 'cherish'. however, there's 1 special thing bout them. u will never be able to meet the 3 of them at the same time. instead u will only get to knw them one after another. first, "Lost" then "regret" lastly "cherish". " this is life. bet, many people have been through this and everyone will go through this. everyone will knw these 3 brothers.
okok, better go bathe nw and then SLP!
Fly. because i want to.
8:53 AM
Thursday, February 01, 20078:53 AM
i remember miss chiam(my former girls'brigade officer) once told me the some theory bout the water of life.
in our life, we have this container with 3 tubes. emotional, spiritual and physical. another effect on any of these 3 water levels, we will be affected in a way or another.
as we grow up, responsibilities and commitments increase. nw, i think in my container, its filled with 4 tubes. the usual emotional, spiritual, physical and academic.
my water is all decreasing rapidly.
eeling down, for many things that are happening to me, confusing feelings, pressurising decisions are all weighing on me. losing drive in my goals and aims.
im rather dry spiritually for the almost lost contact with Lord, not going church, not doing quiet time, not even praying to give thanks and seek forgiveness for the sins i committed.
physically unhealthy. respiratory problems, getting fat and lazy. feelg lerthargic easily.
academic-simply exam stress( could also be classified under emotions). period.
maybe its time for me to take some time off, to relax myself, pamper myself and do things just for myself.
time to be alittle selfish for my own needs.
before all these pampering and relaxation, study for my exams first!
jia you carene!
people out thr who are having their exams, all the best and study hard!
in our life, we have this container with 3 tubes. emotional, spiritual and physical. another effect on any of these 3 water levels, we will be affected in a way or another.
as we grow up, responsibilities and commitments increase. nw, i think in my container, its filled with 4 tubes. the usual emotional, spiritual, physical and academic.
my water is all decreasing rapidly.
eeling down, for many things that are happening to me, confusing feelings, pressurising decisions are all weighing on me. losing drive in my goals and aims.
im rather dry spiritually for the almost lost contact with Lord, not going church, not doing quiet time, not even praying to give thanks and seek forgiveness for the sins i committed.
physically unhealthy. respiratory problems, getting fat and lazy. feelg lerthargic easily.
academic-simply exam stress( could also be classified under emotions). period.
maybe its time for me to take some time off, to relax myself, pamper myself and do things just for myself.
time to be alittle selfish for my own needs.
before all these pampering and relaxation, study for my exams first!
jia you carene!
people out thr who are having their exams, all the best and study hard!
Fly. because i want to.
8:17 AM
8:17 AM